Life is good :)

Currently, I am quite enjoying my life. I've had some realizations tonight, and they have been positive. I am very happy to be living the life I am, and I couldn't ask for better friends :) Today I decided that this summer is going to be amazing, and I plan on making that come true. It shouldn't be too difficult considering the people who surround me. =)

Things I Will Do This Summer:

1. Take a roadtrip somewhere.
2. Meet up with at least one Free Spirit.
3. Buy the That 70's Show complete box set.
4. Get a car.
5. Try new experiences.
6. Help make the world a better place.
7. Become a better person.
8. Really figure out who I am.
   
9. Not worry so darn much.
10. Love and enjoy life! :)

Is it over yet? Can I open my eyes?

Breathe in. Realization hits: freshman year is over. Breathe out. Question arises: what should I be feeling? I ponder this and many other things while sitting alone in my dimly lit dorm room on the eve of moving back home for four months. Today has been a hectic day; this week has been a hectic week; this month has been a hectic month; this life has been a hectic life. Clips of "Cry" by Kelly Clarkson are circling in my head, entwined with the sound of my fingers tapping away on the keyboard. I hear the radiator pumping out air; my roommate walks in, and we discuss the movies we just got back from seeing. I saw "The Soloist" with some friends and she saw "Ghosts of Girlfriends Past" with some friends as well. After some minute discussion about how it doesn't feel as if the school year is actually over, I realize that it truly is. Over.

After months of studying, writing papers, taking tests, giving speeches, making new friends, connecting with old friends, walking around campus, watching tons of movies, rocking out to great music, seeing Hellogoodbye perform live from the front row, reading numerous books, complaining about various teachers, laughing, loving, crying, sleeping, singing, and finally packing, I am no longer a freshman in college. Wow. Even writing that was hard to imagine the truth. Clearly it is true, but...to admit that I am actually growing up and life is moving on for me is...scary. This year flew by, and it is so hard to believe that it is actually over now. Part of me feels like I wasted this past year, but another part of me is proud for what I have accomplished. I'm torn between believing in one of those two options.

Life really confuses me sometimes. Ok, a lot of the time. I'm still here, so I suppose I'm doing something right. Sometimes I ponder to myself just what I am doing right to be where I am today. Other times I wonder what I've done wrong. Life has thrown me many obstacles, and I like to think that I overcome each one, but do I? I guess maybe it's too soon to tell. Now it's summer time, time to party it up and live life to the fullest....and work to earn money for a car. There are so many things I want to do, both for me and just for the summer, but I'm afraid that I'll never be able to get past some things. I feel like maybe I'll be haunted for the rest of my life by one thing in particular, and that terrifies me. I also feel like that one thing is the reason that I feel the sad way I do sometimes. Will I ever be truly happy? Wow that is a loaded question.

Well, regardless, my freshman year is over. I guess it's time for me to enter the real world for a few months? But what if the real world doesn't like me, and what if my best isn't good enough? What if, what if, what if...I could fill the world's voids with millions of what if's and it wouldn't do any good. *Sigh.* I guess it's about that time to pack up the rest of what's left of my life here in boxes and then hit the hay. Tomorrow I will be busy cleaning and moving home, leaving Cobberville behind...nope, still hasn't sunk in yet. I have a feeling it's really going to suck when it does. Off I go...

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Peace!

What a Beautiful Day...

Hello all! Today has just been a great day, and not for one particular reason. It started just like any other day this week: I woke up around 11:30, had something to eat, and then watched mindless TV for about an hour or so (today it was America's Next Top Model). After some more down time in the afternoon, I got bored and decided to curl my hair, and lo and behold it turned out cute! So then I looked super cute :) After some McDonald's for supper, I took my sister to dance class so I could get out of the house haha. Then I went to Sunmart to get cat treats and coffee creamer, then I found Rocky Horror Picture Show for $7!!! Good good deal!!! Then I had moer time to kill so I went to Walmart to buy food for school and I went to the 5 dollar movie bin, and I found The Wedding Date! And then I perused the CD's, and after some searching I found a 2 disc Broadway Classics and Hits set for $5!!!! Me = even more pumped!!! So I left Walmart quite pleased with myself...then I still had a half hour to kill before my sister's dance class was done, so I texted Jillian from MI and we had a phone chat! It was lovely, and I missed her so much!" Then I came home and now I'm watching Rocky Horror and drinking my Raspberry Ice Tea Snapple that I got on sale at Sunmart and I couldn't be happier!!! I just felt like sharing my awesome day with you all :) Love love love!!

I'm happy :)

I know I already posted something today, but I felt inspired to write a new post. Currently, at this moment, I am very happy. I just finished watching "Catch Me If You Can" and now I'm watching "Ferris Bueller's Day Off." That makes a great night, first of all. Second of all, I have no school until April 6. Although that is due to the fact that the Red River is a little above 40 feet right now and it may or may not keep rising, it still is, for right now, semi-exciting. I get to relax! And there's another reason why I'm happy, but I do not want to disclose it here.

Moral of the story: I am happy. 'Nuff said. :)

Venting.

Sorry, this time I don't have a catchy intro or attention getter. Something has really been bothering me lately: drinking and partying. I'm sorry, but I just don't get the appeal of it. I seriously don't. I don't hate people who drink and party, but I just don't understand it. I thought I knew which friends of mine didn't do that kind of stuff, and then I discovered in a way I will not disclose here that they do indeed drink. I guess it just kind of hurts to know this because almost all of my friends drink and party. Almost all of them. This does not make me want to do the same thing they do, but it just disappoints me, more than I probably care to admit. Everyone is free to make their own decisions, but...seriously? Ok I just needed to vent. Done.